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Good mornin' suboxone sisters/brothers-
Hi to the twins-like your post..i can dig it!
Ahhhh-suboxone-can't live w/o it(right now)..its given me a chance to pull things together.I can pay my bills..save a lil bit too.I get thru my day w/o craving(big 0ne for me) cos when i was off dope all i did was crave hard.So-theres some serenity too.Chemically induced-but hey..since the age of 13 i was seeking altered states of conciousness.
Im not too far behind you twins..im 44..and for me-a little dignity /not scrambling for drug money/my familys respect/and self-esteem went up a couple notches being on the subox program.
This is a life-long issue..being an addict active/or inactive..i got problems!lol
Depression/anxiety/ptsd/-the list goes on.
I waited for the FDA-for 4 yrs. deciede to put subox on the market..and now its here..im on it..and for most of the people here-it saved our behinds!
just a mornin rant-fueled by coffee/smokes/suboxone..
heather
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:D We twins are so pleased you are "into" humor, as well. Humor has seen us through many times that were totally NOT humorous! I don't think we would have survived our Mom's long, horrible descent into dementia, if we could not have laughed occasionally at the absurdity of what life had become. (And funnily enough, right to the end, our mother retained her own sense of the absurd. Strong genes!) :D

Of course, we're aware that not everyone can find relief from the kind of "dark" humor Alice and I--and our family--have always enjoyed. So, my worst fear is seeming insensitive when I joke around.

As is often so typical of people who turn to humor and seem to be having quite a laugh at life--both Alice and I have long histories of clinical depression! Thankfully, a combination of Prozac and Wellbutrin for me--and just Prozac for Alice--have greatly reduced both my obsessive thinking--and turned down the depression to so much more manageable. We both accept that depression, etc, is is our genes....but that's exactly the reason why their are pharmacies and antidepressants! :-)

If you've read Alice's longer post about our "history" in the Double Trouble post, you'll know that, although we have never taken great amounts...we did get hooked on our cousin's opiates...a VERY weird story. :rolleyes: The "good" news is that she just had her prescription changed from oxys to some new pain pill--Avizan or something like that name--which is morphine based. And if there's one thing Alice and I find unpleasant--it's morphine! So--our cousin's doctor has, in effect, put us on a taper program that we can't say "no" to. Ah, the strangeness of life!! We are both happy--and worried--at the same time. Taking about three 40 mg oxys a day....and maybe about two hydros as a "breathrough" remedy (aaarrrggghhh) had taken us to the point where we felt absolutely lousy. We were not getting more than 10 minutes warm, fuzziness--and then totally plummeting into waves of depression, as we realized we could not take more because it made us sick--and was getting useless anyway. When people talk about their heads "not being in a good place" on opiates--I know exactly what they mean. It's been the most unnatural period of our formerly active lives and we are happy the supply has dwindled down. We're currently "enjoying" the withdrawal from oxys (still have a few "nibbles" left--but almost gone) and we do have some hydro. But the hydros were never as much of a problem for us compared to those oxys. :nono: Soon there will be NO pills--and then we will have our lives back. (No, don't ask me to flush the hydros down the toilet. Since my cousin offers them to me--I feel that if I don't want them, the least I can do is give them BACK to her. She is a genuine pain management patient, with years of all sorts of surgeries.)

Anyway! Isn't it amazing how a person can fully understand the bizarre life they've slipped into--but still manage, for years, to rationlize it. Hopefully, our annual ski trip our West in a week's time will see us mostly pill-free and enjoying the natural high of a flight down the slopes. But--realistically--it will take more time both with the withdrawals...and the acceptance that the other sort of "flight"--flying high and feeling such sudden happiness about life--is over. It was so temporary anyway. We were always both exuberant people, who took such pleasure in the small things in life. And I'm sure we will again. It's just going to be so hard giving up those "trips" we travelled on, day to day. :D

Again, thanks for your "smiles" at our posts. I desperately NEED humor right now. :jester:

I don't know your own story....but wish you--and all other posters--lotsa, lotsa good wishes and compassion. I try to read as many posts as I can and I've learned so much about pills...and people.

Lynn

PS Does anyone know why oxys can be so "uplifiting"--but morphine such a depressant?? Pills like MsContin just make me feel ill--even in infinitessimal amounts. And yet I've read they both go to the same receptors in the brain.
Dear Kimbee, I have always been on a low dose. When I first started taking Suboxone I had researched it for a long time. I was so sick of searching for pills. I was taking 20-30 of whatever I could get a day for about 6 years. When I went to my doctor, I was the first patient he put on Suboxone and he didn't know much about it. I don't have insurance, I couldn't afford a higher dosage. I was never sick, had any withdrawal of anykind. But I will tell you this, if I sweat at all, have any vomiting or even exercise too hard, I have to take a little more. I think I take just barely enought to keep me from being sick, but it works for me, so I have kept it the way it is. Plus it is much cheaper than an 8mg pill! I think this medication works for two reasons, I have read that they are using for depression too. It only makes sense, most addicts are depressed, if you take the depression away, there is no reason to want to get high. At least that is how I look at it. Now that I am not completely depressed all the time, wanting to die, feeling like I am in a black hole, I don't want to use. Don't get me wrong, there have been times that things go wrong, like when my husband died unexpectantly earlier last year that I was depressed and though, man I would like to feel better it would be nice to take a pill. The good thing about the Suboxone is you can't. It has the Naloxone in it, so even if I would have taken a pill I wouldn't have felt it. I am so happy I have found the Suboxone, my life has changed soooooooooooo much. Very few people new I was addicted to painkillers, but all of them notice a change in my behavior and moods. I have told everybody I am taking an anti-depressant, in a way I am. Good Luck.....Stacy





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