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Re: Tramadol Advice
Dec 26, 2004
I can't help but reply to this. A lot of you already know my story. The same one I've been telling for months now. But for the newbies and people behind...

Tramadol was introduced to me June 2003. At that time, I had recently kicked my quick, but apparent Adderall XR (amphetamine) abuse. I have a cyst on my left testicle, and when I'm physically active it causes quite a bit of pain. That's when I was given Tramadol. I knew nothing about the drug. I did not know it's addictive properties. I did find a site that mentioned it could be addictive, but that only excited me to try it. A little nervous, I took half of a 50mg tablet (25mg). I had never felt so good in my entire life. Since I had a limited supply (20 tablets w/ no refill) I decided to save some for special occasions. The bottle of 20 tablets lasted me until September. I called my doc and asked for more. He gave me another bottle (20 tablets w/ no refill). This is when my 1-tablet-every Friday habit started. Yes, every Friday, during school hours I would ingest 1 tramadol. Made everything so much funner. The buzz lasted for up to 12 hours as well. So for me, tramadol was "the perfect drug". I called for more December 2003, and then my use started to slowly rise, steadily. I started to get worse with my use around March or April 2004. I started calling for more a lot sooner than usual. I realized I might have a problem with tramadol summer 2004 (one year after first using it). But I continued to use it. Also around this time, I started experimenting with marijuana. July 2004, I lost my first love who I had been with for 2 years and 4 months at the time. This is when things get worse. Depression overcame me, and I noticed that tramadol was good as an anti-depressant. So my use went up to pretty much daily. 1 or 2 tablets every noon. Now, I call my doc every 2 weeks asking for more tramadol. Last Tuesday (12/21) I saw him in the office, and he said he isn't going to keep me on tramadol much longer. I'm guessing he'll fill me 4 more prescriptions or so and that'll be it. Tramadol has became a HUGE part of my life the past year. Losing it would put me through a grieving process of losing another "love".

My doses aren't big at all. Usually only 100-150mg a day. I do notice slight w/d in the morning until I take the pills. I have high-anxiety and I have a feeling tramadol is actually making it worse. Since I have started abusing marijuana and tramadol I have a lot of panic attacks and I feel like I'm on the "edge" a lot. My fear of death is so intense lately. It feels like my head is constantly clouded with fear. I have gone to the doctor so much to get checked out. Thought i had heart disease, high blood pressure, low blood pressure, cancer, the list goes on. For this fear, I'm going to see a therapist. I'm thinking it might be good to admit my problem with tramadol.

I'm ready to kick the tramadol habit, but I'm not at the same time. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

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