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Hi im 17 years old and i started smokin weed at age 14 until March of 04, In January of 04 i smoked a joint and the next day later my symptoms came at me at full force i became estranged wit my sense of reality, It all started in my math class i looked down at the floor and it zoomed in and out in and out. Ive been lookin for an answer for my problem for a while now. After that my sense of reality diminished greatly and still is bad. Everything would feel very strange like all the objects in my room were foreign and my memory went haywire and i couldn't remember how to spell easy words or i couldn't remember peoples names that i knew for years. So i would just feel soo tripped out like i was constantly dreaming, the symptoms have toned down for the year after i stopped smokin pot, i haven't smoked for 10 months but i still feel like ive lost my mind and i think as every day goes on i drift deeper and deeper away from reality, and i wanna know if anyone can give me techniques on how to grab hold and improve myself whether its from using supplements/medication/ other techniques i would really appreciate it because i feel that if i dont get help, i will have to use suicide as a way out, i know its the pathetic way but i guess 1 second of deep pain is better than a life time of suffering. Please dont take my words as depressing, because i am not depressed, i am just being realistic
[QUOTE=Warren_G]Hi im 17 years old and i started smokin weed at age 14 until March of 04, In January of 04 i smoked a joint and the next day later my symptoms came at me at full force i became estranged wit my sense of reality, It all started in my math class i looked down at the floor and it zoomed in and out in and out. Ive been lookin for an answer for my problem for a while now. After that my sense of reality diminished greatly and still is bad. Everything would feel very strange like all the objects in my room were foreign and my memory went haywire and i couldn't remember how to spell easy words or i couldn't remember peoples names that i knew for years. So i would just feel soo tripped out like i was constantly dreaming, the symptoms have toned down for the year after i stopped smokin pot, i haven't smoked for 10 months but i still feel like ive lost my mind and i think as every day goes on i drift deeper and deeper away from reality, and i wanna know if anyone can give me techniques on how to grab hold and improve myself whether its from using supplements/medication/ other techniques i would really appreciate it because i feel that if i dont get help, i will have to use suicide as a way out, i know its the pathetic way but i guess 1 second of deep pain is better than a life time of suffering. Please dont take my words as depressing, because i am not depressed, i am just being realistic[/QUOTE]

Warren, Is there anyway you can go to the Dr. and come clean with the Dr. about your past use with the Marijuana? I would almost bet that what you are experiencing probably isnt even related to your past use. Most likely you could be helped and be rid of your problem with Therapy or even some medication. You are so young and you have your whole wonderful life in front of you. It just kills me to hear you talk about suicide. I am sorry, but i am here to tell you that suicide is the most single selfish act you can imagine. It is an easy way out for you, but do realize what it would do to the people who love you the most? It's not as simple as "oh, they will get over it in time and move on", not true, it is something that they will LIVE WITH EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES!!!! Trust me i know, my best friend in the whole world passed away a few short months ago leaving behind a 3 month old baby, 4 year old boy and a 7 year old girl, i am angry and sad at the same time for doing this to her children and to all of those who loved her so much. It's not fair. I dont mean to come off as sounding mean or harsh, just truthful. Please think about it..... before doing something so tragic, get help for your problem. Exhaust all the resources thats out there that could help you!!!! Think about it! Peace and love, ValleyGurl





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