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Sweetums, I sure hope you stick around here because it seems that we have soooooo very much in common and it would be nice to have someone to talk to about it. There are so many wonderful people on this board that is here to help anytime, this is a super place.

I, like you, am also so depressed and i just cant see my way out either. I have my addiction to Vicodin and Percocet. For me i feel it is a lose lose situation for i suffer with chronic pain and without the meds my quality of life isnt that great, but with the meds i cant control myself and over medicate BIG TIME!!!!! This past couple of weeks i have been stressing so much and the pill use has really increased.

Let me tell you a little about myself, you will then understand why i was drawn to your post. I am married and my husband kinda sorta knows about my addiction but it isnt something we talk about. I have 5 children ages
18,17,13,12, and 8. My 8 year old son is severely handicapped.
My husband's brother was addicted to drugs and found himself in Federal Prison. He had 3 children. A 14 year old boy with this woman who is mentally ill and couldnt take care of him so i had custody of him for a year and a half, he just went back to his mother but i have visitation every weekend and all school holidays. My brother in law then had 2 more children with my best friend. They are 4 and 7. My best friend was a drug addict and she killed herself just 6 short months ago. So i am now raising those two children. The 4 year old is a boy and he has a severe speech delay and severe behavior issues. So anyway, on the average day i have 8 children, my plate is full with just my handicapped child now add these other children to it and my 4 other children, depression and addiction. My life is a mess!!!!!!!!!!

I often find myself asking God why he doesnt help me and what did i do to have to suffer all the time. I have a wonderful husband and marriage but since we have been together our lives have just been filled with hardship and sorrow.

You see, i know how bad you feel already and then to have the "pill" problem it just adds to it. I think that if you stick around we could talk and offer each other some much needed support to see us through this tough time.


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