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Hey Christine,
Hang in there girl. How's that man doing? Hope you two are sticking together. It doesn't matter what you have to do to get clean..just do it. I understand what you mean about what they say in NA. It is very true. Eleven years clean and I was full speed ahead in about 2-3 weeks. It is so hard to make it back, to face everyone, to look myself in the eye, to tell my husband..even my 14 year old son found out. I don't want to try it again. It took me over a year to get the courage to stop this time. I don't want to be a slave to that little amber bottle anymore. Doctor shopping, pill popping, pharmacy hopping..it stinks.

I am also looking forward to the holidays without feeling I have to take a pill to feel happy. Hubby and I are going away for a long weekend Nov 11 and I so hope I feel better by then. It's been over 40 days and I still feel like crap alot. But I am sick right now and that only adds to it. Like I said in another post. I went over a year without even a cold while I was popping opiates...I don't get it..now I cannot get well. I'll just keep hanging on. Every morning when I open my eyes I hope it will be better and eventually it will happen. I had a few good days this week so I have a glimmer of what it will be like and I'm hanging on to it.

Keep moving girl!! You're doing it!! So glad you are going back to NA. It really really helps so much. I always feel better when I leave a meeting. Like I can make it one more day. I finally got a sponsor. It is so wierd. I've known this lady for 12 years. She has 19 years in the program. We've been on trips together. A bunch of us girls used to rent a cabin in the mountains every winter and go up for a few days. She always went with us. She's great..I don't know why I never thought about working with her before now. We help each other I guess. I really feel like I can be completely honest with her about anything and that is so important. Just to be able to dump it all and talk freely.

Anyway..now I'm babbling. Have a great day.





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