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Almost every one of us on this board has had to survive the HELL of withdrawal. Alone with your demons you are, and always will be, but not alone in experiencing the agony of detox. That is why you will find an understanding and insightful group here. Keep posting and get it out.

Knowledge is power, right? Research PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome), and know that the depression and lethargy will, most likely, come to an end (it did with me). A lot of it depends on how long you were on drugs. I know some good folks that have been on narcotics for so long, they don't remember the Joy that can be had with sobriety.

My DOC of choice, BTW, is Norco. I swear that it was harder coming off of that drug than it was to quit smoking. I will never forget. During peak withdrawals, I sat under the covers in my bed in the middle of the night, shaking, sweating, gagging with dry heaves, willing to sell my soul for my fix. I couldn't walk a straight line for three weeks. Total weight loss was about 25lbs.

Hang in there. You CAN do this. When my doctor told me it was going to be a rocky road, I felt like he didn't understand. Later on, during my recovery, we talked and he said that he really doesn't understand. His knowledge of addiction comes from the medical point-of-view. I'm lucky that my wife didn't leave me because she couldn't feel my pain and know that detox does end.


I have enjoyed reading your posts. I have a great admiration for any person that served or is actively surving in the US military...


I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. Is therapy something that is an option for you? Perhaps you and hubbs can join in together?? Some folks don't like the idea of therapy, but with all that you have been through, it seems that IMHO, you really need some help with some coping skills.

Though I'm not an addict, and it seems very easy for me to say, I live the other side of the addict life, having lost one brother to alcohol, and having a 2nd very near deaths door. Both were/are stubborn as heck when it comes to the therapy issue. My family has undergone counseling till we're blue in the face. I've recently set up some new sessions due to the issues I'm facing with my current brother that won't put the bottle down, and just doesn't care. I'm angry as hell at him, and where it's going to lead him. It's almost as if he HAS a death wish.

I know you want to be healthy, but to be healthy completly, includes not only the body, but the mind as well. As I said, (and I'm sure you well know, because you live it every day!) you've been through some major trauma in your life, and therapy could help you on a path to becoming healthy again in both mind and body.

Perhaps the hubbs will embark with you on a path to bringing your old self back with the help of an excellent counselor. Some folks don't even want to talk about Counseling, and/or their significant other want to have nothing to do with this (IMHO) important part of the recovery process.

Just some food for thought. You may already be in counseling, I don't know, and I hope I haven't overstepped my bounds. I just really feel for you, and wanted to make the suggestion. I hope I haven't offended you by doing so.

I will keep you in my thoughts, as well as your family. Believe me, I know where you are coming from, at least in the perspective of being someone who has lost my best friend in the not too distant past due to drugs, and watched her slip away. She wouldn't let anyone "in", and it's very hard from the outside looking in. Communicate with your hubbs.

You are doing a [B]WONDERFUL [/B]job in your soberity, no matter how much it sucks. It WILL get better, it just takes some time to "re-wire" the brain to get used to life without all those chemicals. Keep the chin up, remember where you've come from, and keep those goals you have lined out. You [B]WILL [/B]get there. It might not be on the schedule you had hoped for, and it might not be the easiest ride, but you have great strength and you [B]CAN [/B]do this.

Much luck, take care.

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