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Opps my potty mouth got my hour long reply deleted. So where do I start, yes I am sure the box is out of my system, but my whole expierence with the addiction department was pretty bad. To start with they did not want to give me a dose until the phen patch was out of my system for 4 days, now I understand they can be issues with this, and this all started with me not following docs orders and ripping off patch an flushing down the toilet 2 fri ago. I could have just put a patch back on and went to docs to complain about side affects bothering me, and I understand that going to a place to get on subox these nurses have to deal everyday with people in the middle of an addiction war, but other than 1 really, really bad day of eating norcos during wd off of patch I have handled my pain meds as prescribed for almost 2 years, even though I have been fully dependant on my pain meds, I was not getting pills from other doctors, I was not drinking on top of meds or at all so to be treated like I was some kind of charity case junkie begging for a cure was pretty bunk. After 3 days of handing out my issue they wanted me to drive 10 miles to local phamacy an bring back meds so they could hand outm this is where I helped make my life a bummer. I thought maybe they made a mistake with meds by giving me my daily with a script for same day so I opened up bottle and took 2 out and put in bag in car. I went to nurse to give bottle and she started to freak out because I had opened up bottle, when I figured out this was turning into a scene, I apoligized and said I left 2 in car, at this point she's not hearing me right and says I ate way to many pills and she has to get the doctor and get out of her office and wait, scolding me like I was a little kid in serious trouble. After waiting an hour another nurse comes out and starts telling me they may have to stop treating me for abusing their program which is where I blow up and say I'm not going to take this crap and I want to see supervisor because at the end of the day I did not eat more then I was directed to and they can't fathom that this mess is nothing but a misunderstanding brought on by my stupidity, nevertheless they figure it out and send me on my merry way. When my dose got up to 12mg I was relieved of <[COLOR="Blue"]removed[/COLOR]> over w/d's and felt some minor pain relief as well. I believe that had my dose been upped to 16/20mg a day that might have put me in a comfortable place that might have lasted 6 months, which is right about when I learned that this would be a 2 week detox. In hindsight even though I had some dependency issues and being an addict with a <[COLOR="Blue"]removed[/COLOR]> of cleantime some addiction issues, I really think I might have been under medicated. After having foot surgery at the end of last year I could not afford to take 2 months off of work so I figured if I just ate a bunch of pills (prescribed) I could deal with work after 10 days off, this made my recovery take forever so they put me in "pain management" to deal with the continued use of vicodin/5 mg percocet/120 mg morphine. At the end of the pain classes I started to have a whole new kind of back pain, I have had a bad back for 25 years but now pain was shooting down my legs. I then started have side effects on the morphine so I had doc ween me off, once I was off of morphine my pain got even worse, and the whole time it seems like my doctors were very suspect on the pill usage. Yesterday my doc finally got a look at my back mri which show degen disk disease with a 2cm bulge popping out, now it seems (this just may be me) he is totally sympathic as opposed to suspect, now I don't feel like I'm just psyching myself into pain, this crap is real an even the mri tech spotted it but wouldn't comment. The doc is afraid to give it a shot as bulge seems to be in the way so I am loaded up with some steroids and bt pain meds have been doubled. It seems messed up to see this on my back to realize it ain't going away on its own anytime soon, but for whatever reason I feel a sense of relief both mentally and physically so if I can just keep from abusing meds and work on any other ways of dealing I should be ok, to be fair its really just a bad bad back, but my immediate health is not bad and there is so much worse that people deal with every day that I really just NEED to try and I should be fine, once again thanks to anyone here that has responded to my pity party, it was really helpful just to write this out.......hopefullynotasstupidonpainmed.
Hi there! I don't know anything about suboxone, so can't offer any advice there, but I just wanted to drop by and offer my support.

I, too, am stuck between that rock and hard place of chronic pain and meds, so I understand what you're going through. Coming off, and having the pain intensify, just adds to the nightmare of the withdrawals. It's horrible.

Keep fighting to get off the meds. I am. And when I'm clean (or maybe before) I'm going to start researching alternative methods pf pain control. It's tough when you have an injury, because there is only so much you can do. I had a neck injury a few years back, and got a lot of relief by going to physical therapy. Readeroz just mentioned acupuncture in another thread. That may be worth looking into for back pain. There are also prescription pain patches that are non-narcotic. My neurologist gave me some when I injured my neck, and they helped. They only provided minor relief, but it was better than nothing. I'm not sure which medication is in the patches, but definitely non-narcotic.

Keep fighting. If you lost some friends over this, I would say that they weren't very good friends in the first place. But I know how quick people can be to judge. I have had several people tell me I was an addict because I was taking Vicodin. Well, until you've experienced severe pain, you can't possibly understand. I think anyone with our level of pain would do ANYTHING to make the pain stop. Then you pay the price. But when you're in pain, it's pretty hard to think ahead of the possible consequences. If someone gives you a pill that will stop the pain, you take it. And sometime down the road, you get the surprise of your life. It's a horrible cycle and it STINKS.

I'm siting here in pain myself, and fighting like heck, because I know it will be over soon. Just keep looking at that light at the end of the tunnel. You can do it!

Wishing you all the best.

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