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Thank you so much for the advice and the prayer. I need it so bad right now! I made it through the entire day yesterday. I was in so much pain yesterday and last night, I didn't think I'd make it. I took an ambien last night and slept really well. In fact, I slept from about 6:30 last evening until 6:30 this morning. Besides waking up a few times with hot flashes, I slept pretty good. I can't believe how good I felt this morning. My back doesn't hurt as bad as it did yesterday, but my hands are shaking, my mouth tastes like I swallowed a cotton ball, and I'm freezing! And I think the worst thing of all is I can't stop thinking about taking vicodin! I am trying to keep myself busy, but its driving me crazy! I know what you are saying too about telling my Dr. That situation is kind of sticky. I worked with my Dr for the past 3 years. I went to him with my back issue and he put me on the vicodin. Ever since that he has just been handing me scripts. I quit my job and moved 5 hours away! I have been where I am now for only a month. I have called him twice for the vicodin and he calls it in for me. I know him personally so well and I'm afraid to tell him about my addiction problem. And honestly, he has to know. I mean, he has been handing me scripts for so long. I really don't think he cares. There is also a part of me that thinks "what if I need it again some day" I know that is so not the way I should be thinking, but I can't help it. I'm trying so hard to overcome these thoughts that I need pain medication. I feel like my body is adjusting, but my brain isn't there yet. Are these thoughts ever going to go away?!?!?!?!?!?!?
mustanggirl,

Congrats on Day#3! You've got a great attitude. I found that in early recovery keeping busy is the best thing to do. It's not always easy, but keeping your mind and body occupied can really help with the cravings.

It's wonderful that your husband is there for you. My husband has been so supportive right from the day he found out about my pill problem. He said he just wanted ME back. I think your guy has the right idea, pick up those pills and have [I]you[/I] flush them. Don't think about the "what if". If you feel you really need them in the future for legitimate pain, get a new doc or maybe even pain management.

Have you thought about attending NA meetings? I was reluctant to go at first, but it really helps to hear from others that have similar problems and a place to share how you're feeling.
I haven't put a mind or mood altering substance in my body for over 17 months. I can't believe it's been that long. It hasn't always been easy, but that's life. You have to enjoy it, one day at a time.
I'll be watching for your posts. Let everyone here know how you're doing. This is wonderful place for support. Take care. You can do this!

Kitty





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