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Hey everyone, I'm new to this board but I'm from the OCD board, Self-injury board and i posted one the depression I'm all over the place lol

but on a serious note, I have found that im just very angry inside myself because in life i try to be the kind one, im shy, not that outspoken to other on my feelings about what they might do, or say etc. well I had this " friend " so i thought but she played she was innocent for so long she messe daround with my boyfriend blamed it on him when she had part in it also and then tells me she wants to help me. she gets mad at me for speaking my mind which was not rude of me.


Then knowing symptoms of the illness i have she puts on a scary movie knowing i cant handle that stuff and tells me to cover my head, then if she does not get want she wants she throws a fit and she was very negative selfish the list does go on

I have been in bad relationships where i was used in many ways. and have 2 dad's that i dont feel connected to has a duaghter. my childhood i was always scared of my father and as i grow up he was perverted to me.

I have a cosuin that choked me, would say mean things to me. Sheherself is very angry but my point is all these people walk all over me and its ok because im so shy and kind they think they can get away with it this si all my past though.

I have OCD ( obsessive compulsive disorder ) and i can't control my own mind i get all the time these bad intrusive thoughts that are always bothering me, confusing me, upsetting me. causing me alot of distress its the biggest fight of my life and i have yet to overcome it i have been dealing with this forever it seems. when will i ever control my mind its agaisnt me.

I self injure myself either because im very upset or for attention i guess or just because im obsessing on it I just find my anger surfaces im just so tried and angry inside and dont know how to handle my anger sometimes just tired thanks again forlsitening God bless everyone (( hugs )) :angel:
[QUOTE=IcyDestiny]Hey I know how you feel, people consider me shy but only because they do not come up and get a chance to know me. Tell someone, anyone about you feeling uncomfortable with your dad like a pastor or a school councilor. Its best to get the anger out by talking to your mom or peers about the issues you are facing. My cousin talks badly to me at times too but i still love her cause we can get along if she doesnt put me down. If you feel like you cannot trust anyone, talk to God since he is your Father, the one who created you first. Keep your chin up and think positively about life and you will be all right with the world.[/QUOTE]


Thank you for replying to me, I have OCD and it causes me great problems its so hard to talk to God because of OCD but I know he listens to me and even answers me sometimes I just find life very stressful and I'm angry and im scared and im hurting and i cant seem to get over all of that. I'm angry because I can't control my own thoughts im angry because of people I'm angry because i cant seem to stay happy more then just moments or a day or a hlaf a day and i cannt seem to be in peace sometimes and its all very frustrating to me and i dont treat myself very kind when im feeling bad i talk negative to myself and i hurt myself and i just am mentally tired and dont think i can do this all over again i feel i can be very close to a break down or a can work my butt ooff and trying to fight OCD & depression and let go of the angry about the people but i find things like that are not so easy and its always a fight a struggle everyday and im just extremely tired thanks again for listening, I hope that u had/having a very blessed day take care of u God bless u always (( hugs )) :angel:
[QUOTE=ontheway]Thank you for replying to me, I have OCD and it causes me great problems its so hard to talk to God because of OCD but I know he listens to me and even answers me sometimes I just find life very stressful and I'm angry and im scared and im hurting and i cant seem to get over all of that. I'm angry because I can't control my own thoughts im angry because of people I'm angry because i cant seem to stay happy more then just moments or a day or a hlaf a day and i cannt seem to be in peace sometimes and its all very frustrating to me and i dont treat myself very kind when im feeling bad i talk negative to myself and i hurt myself and i just am mentally tired and dont think i can do this all over again i feel i can be very close to a break down or a can work my butt ooff and trying to fight OCD & depression and let go of the angry about the people but i find things like that are not so easy and its always a fight a struggle everyday and im just extremely tired thanks again for listening, I hope that u had/having a very blessed day take care of u God bless u always (( hugs )) :angel:[/QUOTE]
:p Youre welcome anytime, Im glad to know that someone has the same things going on as me.. I was deeply depressed for 2 years and I am still recovering, but doing much better. Just surround yourself with positive people and itll be fine. Face the world like it is your last and live it to the fullest! God loves ya. :cool:
Were you diagnosed by a doctor as having OCD? If you were, did he prescribe medications?? Have you sought counseling? My mom has OCD and is prescribed a med that helps with it. Still has some issues with it but in the long run it has helped her alot with it.
Your low self esteem is hindering you and allowing others to take advantage of you. Please know, that NO ONE is better than anyone else. We are all the same, with the same rights for respect and dignity. Learn to stand up for yourself. KNOW that you deserve better treatment. Please look into counseling if you have not done so yet. It will help you , teach you ways to overcome the low self esteem and teach you ways to stand up for yourself. Assertiveness, not agressiveness. First of all the first person you need to CONVINCE that you deserve respect and dignity is yourself honey. Also as someone suggested you might want to ask the doctor to prescribe a med for depression if he feels thats a part of it, i am thinking its a large part, but im not a doctor. YOU DESERVE BETTER SWEETIE!!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL, YOU ARE JUST AS GOOD AS ANYONE ELSE!!! BELIEVE THAT, KNOW THAT! Also, if you need to vent or just talk, we are here for you honey and we will listen if thats all you need or give advice, or simply hold your hand, whatever YOU need. OK???
Love and hugs,
Jen
Ice Destiny

Thanks for responding again, thats really good your doing much better I'm sure its a great relief for you. I live with my family and they are not the most positive family because i know they have there problems too but I know I'm loved, I have a loving boyfriend that is there for me I sometimes just feel too tired mentally and dont have the energy there are days where I want to be here then moments where I just want to give up but I know I have to keep going, I hope ur having a nice day take care God bless always


Zeethan

thanks for your reply, I feel that people take my kindness for thier personal use and use it in a useful way.. I feel like I don't even want a friend because I can't seem to find ones that will treat me with same respect I treat them It's just tiring to have to have a friend sometimes I dont even want to be social even online I don't talk to my friends because I just have no want to talk the only person I want to talk to is my boyfriend and that seems to be it besides my mom I did have one Good friend while back but she moved and I lost contact with her. I do take medication, I'm on nuerontin and zoloft and risperdal would love for it to have less side effects and have an more helpful affect It does help to some degree but I could be doing better and I know I have to do the work as well but sometimes i run on the lack of motivation because of fear and i hate fear but im going to try and do better thanks again for responding to me I hope your having great day take care, God bless always

Jenetti, Thanks for your reply and your kind words.. The frist doctor i went to diganosed me with OCD and i change doctors and i went to another one when i started getting more intrusive thoughts I didnt know how to describe it so i would say they tell me and my doc thought i was talking about voices i miss lead him so he thinks i have scizo and I dont I know this in my heart I know what I have and he wont even listen to me now I'm hoping to get away from him he put me on risperdal that is medicine for voices and thoughts i suppose but if he actually put me on some more OCD medication I think I'd do much better I would like to be able to stand up for myself but I don;t like conflick and when someone hurts me i usually keep some of it inside and it trun anger because I just let people walk all over me because I'm " shy " to stand up for myself and thats really hard for me.I was going to therapy alot more often then i am now but now I only go once a month because she does not take my insurance and i do private pay thank you for offering to listen to me vent just last weekend I got so mad i hurt myself and i just am so mad inside and depressed I want to be happy and show the real me but its so hard to get to the real me while being covered with pain and confusion thanks for listening I hope ur having nice day take care God bless

(( HUGS 2 U ALL )) :angel:
OH hon, im so sorry you had a rough weekend and even sorrier that you took it out on yourself.
I am up alot during the nights and i dont go out much. I had surgery and the incision got infected and so ive been laid up at home for months. Also i have fibro so that doesnt allow me to sleep very well sometimes. So im on here alot during the weekends and at nights as well as during the week. Please know you can probably find me on here , so next time you feel like talking , just post a message on here and i will get a notice in my email and will come over here and post and keep you company if i can. Ok?? I know sometimes all we need is just someone who listens to us and someone who cares and just someone to chat with. I want to let you know that i care and im here ok??
All my love,
Jen
[QUOTE=Jenetti]OH hon, im so sorry you had a rough weekend and even sorrier that you took it out on yourself.
I am up alot during the nights and i dont go out much. I had surgery and the incision got infected and so ive been laid up at home for months. Also i have fibro so that doesnt allow me to sleep very well sometimes. So im on here alot during the weekends and at nights as well as during the week. Please know you can probably find me on here , so next time you feel like talking , just post a message on here and i will get a notice in my email and will come over here and post and keep you company if i can. Ok?? I know sometimes all we need is just someone who listens to us and someone who cares and just someone to chat with. I want to let you know that i care and im here ok??
All my love,
Jen[/QUOTE]


Jen

Thank you so much for being here for me to talk with me and thank you very much for caring for me I do appreciate that. I just have so much anger built up inside me and when its triggered I ususally end up hurting myself which hurts others I don't want to hurt anymore I know those negative feelings to well and I'd like to get to know the feelings of peace, happiness, contentment, Its very hard for those type of feelings to be felt but the others are so easy to feel and I hate that I don't want to be scared anymore either I have this stupid OCD that controls and trys to controls alot of my thought process and actions with rituals and im so tired im just mentally very tired and I feel like I'm burden people with my feelings , thoughts, ( which burdens me ) and actions with the rituals or the depression and I dont want to be a burden anymore I'd love to be the blessing I'm suppose to me. It's just very hard to maintain a positive attitude all the time when the inside of me is hurting so much i just want to be helped but I realise it starts from me I have to help myself and thats the hard part I have to put the effort into making myself better and im already tired as it is but I will try and i will oneday be free I just have 3 special things keeping me here and there is a part of me thats dead and the other side whats to live thanks for always listening to me on here that is very kind for your time to try and help me thank you for being a friend I know it took me a while to respond I need to be better about that take care of you God bless u always (( hugs )) :cool: please let me know how u are doing ?
Hi again

I just thought I'd post this on this post, I'm so mad lately because of this stupid illness I have I can't make it shut the crap up and it angers me so much I lash out on the one thing I should not but when that rage builds up inside of me I don't know what to do its like I don't care im going to say it if i want too ( cuss words )) and i feel like hitting things dang its like go the crap away OCD and leave me alone, i have got a life to live I have NO MORE time for this illness inside my life its MY LIFE, MINE, MINE, AND ONLY MINE AND GOD'S... I want to sleep last night but nooooooo i have to be preoccupied with unwanted thoughts this makes my life suck i dont like earth its just a piece of crap filled with ton of messes and its runing my life..i know i could be happy but that word likes to hide its meaning from me all the time so what does the word " happiness "" really mean, I dont know, why would I not knoow ? because it hides from me all the freaking time, I need more help then I get I cant continue to fight a stupid problem inside my mind by myself I hate this I'm all confused sometimes and Its a horrible feeling, I cant seem to step out of this personal hell spot im stuck in cant keep going like this but im not reallly living i just exist life has got me so afraid of everything and im freaking mad, thanks so m uch everyone for letting me vent God bless u all always





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