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I fully agree with the above post...

You know it is not your boyfriend's fault that the situation with your parents happened, but he IS the cause of it (on a very superficial level. Not deep down though of course), and the reaction you have had to the situation with your parents and home life was a fear reaction...because obviously it was a very unsettling and unpleasant time for you (all of you).

I assume you are from a fairly traditional or strict family? Asking permission to date an 18 year old is not really the norm these days...but while I can understand them wanting to protect you and have some control or involvement in your life, they SHOULD accept that it is not a REQUIREMENT these days and thus the majority of potential suitors for you would not expect to have to do that. And they should also know that just because someone does not ask for their permission, it does not mean that person is not a good partner for you.

But you know all that already...

I think maybe a part of your anger INSIDE your head (the basic source or root of the anger) is directed at your boyfriend, as I said above...but other parts are directed at your parents and also at yourself.

If it were me in this situation, I'd be furious at my parents...because I'd be SO hurt by them. They care so much about me that they kick me out because I'm dating someone I love deeply? Seems a contradiction to me.

I would also feel inferior within myself. Am I not worth their unconditional love because of who I have chosen to date? What's wrong with ME that they have reacted so strongly over this person I love and want to be with? This person I have chosen, independently of them.

You take it out on him because he's closest to you. You love him, trust him, are comfortable with him. Unfortunately, this is a common thing - we hurt the ones we love the most.

When he tries to make you happy, and just be normal - how you used to be - do you get even more angry? As if...before, when things were ok with your parents / home situation, you were free to be loved by him and love him. But have conflicting feelings...if he treats you well, you reject it. You do not deserve to be treated well by someone who has caused such problems between you and your parents?

You may unconsciously also blame him for "making" you lie to your parents..feel stressed and guilty and have this thing hanging over your head all the time. As if...the only way for you to be happy is to LIE to your parents? That sort of thinking will eventually screw you up. And it is.

If you are having nightmares about when they found out...that is not good. It has impacted you greatly emotionally, and continues to do so.

This is a bit different, but back when I was 18 I was with my best friend (in a lesbian relationship). We got together...I was very happy and parents didn't know, and I felt guilty but it was ok for a while. Then my mum worked it out (not quite sure HOW), and confronted me. I was insecure and immature in many ways and didn't have the confidence to stand up for how I felt and who I felt I was.

So I didn't say much...didn't "defend" myself...just wanted her to drop the matter as quickly as possible. She expressed her strong displeasure at my choice of partner and said she felt she had done something wrong in my upbringing (this has all long since changed and she is fine with everything, thank goodness!). This resulted in me feeling HIGHLY guilty. Guilt, I find, is a terrible emotion. It hangs around your neck like a lead weight and makes you act differently to how you otherwise would without its constant presence. I also always tried to hide the frequency I was talking to or seeing my partner. I knew my mum knew about us, but didn't want it to be OUT THERE, if you know what I mean. This put great pressure on me also.

This pressure went on for ages and resulted in me having horrible screaming anger outbursts or "tantrums" directed at who? My partner, who I loved and felt most comfortable with. I did not blame her for anything, and I wasn't angry at my mum either, but I felt...conflicted inside. I felt inferior, inadequate, like something was wrong with me and I did not deserve to be with a loving partner in a normal relationship.

Anyway...I think the way forward for you is either of the following options...

1. Sit down with your parents. Explain to them how you feel. You are not a child. It does not matter that 18 is the kind of traditional age of being an adult who can do what they like - that's irrelevant here. What matters is that they have raised you to be an intelligent and loving person who has her own mind and trusts and loves and respects the person she has chosen to be with in a relationship.

Explain that their reaction to your relationship has hurt you. (I understand this may be REALLY difficult to do. Even impossible perhaps). You do not know why they would rather kick you out of home rather than try to accept you as the independent adult you are. Are you of no value to them unless you follow their rules on what THEY want you to do? (asking permission, etc) And if it really IS simply that your boyfriend did not ask permission to date you, well...that cannot be undone. It is in the past. Do they want to continue to drag that up forever? Or do they want you to be happy? Just because someone asks permission to date you does NOT in any way mean they will be a good partner to you.

2. After doing this (or instead of), sit down with them AND your boyfriend (if the talk with your parents alone didn't go badly). Discuss things like open, intelligent and loving adults. Your boyfriend and your parents have one thing in common even if nothing else right now - they all love and care about YOU and want the best for you. Surely this is highly important.

3. If this does not work, try again. And again. Keep trying with your parents. And in doing so, band together with your boyfriend. Be a team. He loves you, and you already know this. If you can release yourself from this burden caused by the family situation and your parents' reaction, you will be able to let him in again. And a first step in releasing that burden is to try and be open about with your parents. Trying to rectify the situation.

If this does just not work, then you may have to make a choice. Stay living with your parents but continue to sneak around and thus continue to feel angry and stressed like you do. Stay living with them but actually stop seeing your boyfriend even though you love him. Or be honest with your parents and move out. Either move in with your boyfriend or move out somewhere alone, a share house or whatever is possible for your financial situation (which at 18 years old is probably not ideal).

Good luck.

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