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Cancer: Colon Message Board


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Thanks for the responses, but personally I just don't see a reason to get it checked out when everything I read seems to suggest that I'm probably screwed if I have it and am having symptoms. Sure, I guess if it's NOT cancer but is something else that could lead to cancer down the road (like a polyp)...and I had it removed, having a colonoscopy would be helpful. But what are the odds that it's not cancer? I have pretty much every symptom in the book.

Occasional blood in stool (about 2 weeks in between bleeding incidents)...since tumors bleed only a little and inconsistently, this is probably the worst symptom to have. Irregular bowel habbits which I've had ever since I went to college (I swear, the KU food services had something to do with this...my bowel habbits never returned to normal after I consumed the laxative-loaded dorm food...I'd go home for breaks, go back to eating normally, and all of a sudden I'd have like 5 or 6 bowel movements and constantly feel like I had to go). Now I'm experiencing constipation--really small stools that appear really dark in color.

My guess is that I have multiple lesions or one really big lesion that affects both the upper and lower part of the colon, causing bleeding from multiple areas (hence red blood on toilet paper/in water floating around, plus dark stools/melena).

Only common symptoms I've seen that I don't have (or don't think I have) are anemia (although I've always been a less-than-energetic guy) and unexplained weight loss. I've never weighed more than 120 pounds or so (probably because of my metabolism...and now it makes sense why I was at such a high risk for colon cancer...because my bowels do so much work...maybe), so I don't even know what weight I have to lose. I'll have to weigh myself sometime tomorrow. Oh, and there's not really any pain or cramping...at least not abnormally for me. It just seems right now like I never fully empty my bowels and could always stand to go...but I never get much out.

This week has been a disaster for me as far as bowel movements are concerned. I guess being nervous/stressed out over the blood could play a role, though?

The ONLY thing that gives me outside hope (and what had me somewhat relieved during my first episode two weeks ago but evaporated immediately on Monday night) is that the first time I noticed any blood was during an incident where I had taken a few bowel movements in a short span and felt some tightness/burning/cracking/whatever in my anus...and was almost in the back of my mind EXPECTING some blood on the toilet paper. I had a small streak (the first time I can ever recall noticing blood after defecating) of what I recognized as blood and looked in the toilet bowl but didn't notice any real abnormalities as far as the stools were concerned. So I figured it was probably an anal problem. It seems awfully coincidental for it to have started during that incident and yet two weeks later I have bleeding that is from colon or rectal cancer...

But I find it hard to believe that a teaspoon or maybe a tablespoon or so of mucous-lined blood in the toilet bowl two weeks later is from an anal problem. I had noticed a small streak of blood on the toilet paper again (for the first time since about two weeks prior) during an earlier bowel movement, and again nothing in the stool or the toilet. I figured at that point that maybe I had just opened up whatever prior wound had been there because I had an explosive (but painless) burst of gas and some stool. Then I took a nap. And then I woke up, watched "Heroes," and had another bowel movement. Then I discovered the "Mucous-Blood Heard Round the World." Although I can't help but wonder--maybe it dripped out when I didn't notice it. Maybe it came out first...like it was inside my anus from some sort of deep hemerrhoid or fissure and the streak of blood I saw during pre-nap, BM #1 was only the "tip of the iceberg," so to speak. Maybe that blood stayed moist in there (is there mucous in the rectal area?), then when I defecated later on, it came out. Or maybe it came out last...maybe my bowel movement later on irritated that spot. Maybe...

But I think that's wishful thinking. Sorry for the rant...and I hope this doesn't rub anyone the wrong way as I know there's a lot of people here who KNOW that they have or have had colon cancer (or have relatives with it) and are battling it every day. But my life has mostly sucked up until now and this just seems like the fitting, miserable end...so without actual proof, I'm convinced I'm going to die. And every prospect of a colonoscopy terrifies me--from the prep with the horrible tasting liquid, to the procedure, to hearing the results...and then every prospect of the potential treatments as well (assuming there would even be a treatment)...or the prospect of not being able to stop crying and vomitting once learning I was going to die soon and possibly being given a time frame to live. And I've never had anesthesia. Closest thing I've had to surgery was having four teeth pulled.

I wish I had the courage, but I have absolutely no guts. I have the worst case of anxiety ever...well, that might be a hyperbolic statement, but it's pretty bad. I can't even swallow pills. And I HATE throwing up...I've managed to not throw up since January of 1998...if I had chemo, my 9 year no-vomit streak goes down the drain. I'm more than halfway there to Seinfeld's record...although I guess if I die, I don't get there anyway.

Funny, though...it always seemed like the miserable, spineless, pathetic life forms such as myself lived on forever.

Next stop for me: Hell.
The thing is, though, those really don't sound like my symptoms. I'm not really suffering from chronic diarrhea. The blood I noticed was a clot-like thing...lined in mucous. It didn't turn the toilet water red, it just floated around the surface. I do occasionally feel some aches (sometimes in my back, sometimes elseware...they don't tend to last very long in one place)...but I don't know whether I'd really even notice them if I weren't so concerned.

However, I just recently had a bowel movement and noticed some really thin stools mixed in with more normal ones. It wasn't really a good, complete bowel movement or anything...but going along with everything else that's happened the past month, it kinda scared me again. Hopefully my next BM produces just normal-sized ones.





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