Don't Know What To Do

hi i am jessamine i dont know what to do i dont know if it is a disorder but i dont wanna eat alot of the time people say i am fat all the time and i hate it i dont wanna get sick or something but it is to much and i dont know what to do i just feel so down im sorry if i sound selfish im just lost and needed some one to ask i mean yesterday i wanted to eat but i couldnt cause it was like i looked at the food and it was just like it was saying "oh yeah eat me and you will get fater then you already are" :( :confused: am i weird?