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Hey H, Sumi, Emily and any other readers!

Thanks H for creating this post, it's a very good idea :) I hope everyone's okay, do join in the post and let us all know how you're doing.

As for me...I've just thrown my dinner on the fire while no one was looking. I haven't done anything like that for years and years so I've kinda worried myself a bit. I saw someone today that I haven't seen for a few months and they said 'there's nothing left of you, you're disappearing' and they were asking if I was on a diet or anything. I felt a bit confused; proud but also worried because I really do think I need to lose weight to warrant those sorts of comments, and is that view of myself really so distorted?

Every time I think I'm getting better, I get worse. And I can't tell anyone, I'm so scared of losing my boyfriend because I promised him that I would get better, that i wouldn't get ill again. But every time we talk about my illness we'll talk about it for a week or so - he'll ask me how I'm eating and things - but then we'll just stop talking about it like it's fine all of a sudden. No one realises that it won't go away overnight, if it ever goes away. I'm just not sure what my next step should be and if I want to take it.

I hope everyone else is doing better than me - Sumi, do let us know how it went at the doctors!! I think of you and H a lot, and hope that you are both still fighting and winning :)

Love and hugs,
Luce xxx

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