Re: Confession....

Hey there, Carlie. :)

So sorry to hear you’re not feeling so well today. Maybe suddenly full days of school after your time away getting better was a bit much all at once? Take care of yourself! Don’t overdo it!

I know you don’t want to tell your psychologist about the laxatives... I know it’s an extremely difficult topic. But please don’t feel as though you’re the one to blame for this. Your psychologist will know that too. This is still the works of your eating disorder. I know you’ve come a long way. You really have... so don’t let fear stop you from telling your psychologist what’s happened. She’ll understand, I know she will! When I first started with counseling, I had to tell my counselor about my purging after meals and my over exercising. I was VERY scared and I even lied and told my school counselor that I didn’t purge because I didn’t want my mother to find out. Well, I FINALLY told my counselor the truth, and now she’s helping me find ways to avoid the need to purge, and not once has she made me feel stupid about it! Please don’t be afraid to tell her; she needs to know if you want her to help you recover. If you ARE beginning to show the first signs of bulimia then you need to act NOW. You know what having an eating disorder is like. It’s not new to you anymore as you’ve been through it all. You know how miserable it made you feel so you KNOW that you want to avoid a relapse. Be it anorexia OR bulimia. Please talk to your psychologist, Carrie. Don’t throw away all the hard work you’ve already put in to getting better.

Like the others have already said, you don’t need to worry about being put on an anti depressant at all. For starters, no one has to know if you don’t want them to, but if you do then I assure you they won’t think ANY less of you! In fact, I am also on an anti depressant called Celexa, and have friends – one on Prozac and one on Aropax (Paxil). I prefer to keep it quiet simply because I don’t want anyone to make a big deal of it, but one of my friends has told many people that she’s one an AD and not ONE of them said to her, ‘you’re a ‘Looney’’. :D I assure you! Think of an AD simply as though you would any other medicine such as Insulin for a Diabetic. It’s easier to see it that way, huh? All the AD will do is lift your mood enough for you to be capable of working on your problems so that you can recover from this ED once and for all. Personally, I don’t know WHAT I would have done had I not started taking Celexa. It would certainly have been a struggle without it! I’m sure once you’ve gotten into the routine of taking it you won’t feel so worried about it anymore. :)

Take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing!

Ashlee

PS: Hope you feel better soon!

( ( ( ( ( ( ( ( ( ( :angel: Carrie :angel: ) ) ) ) ) ) ) ) ) )

[This message has been edited by Ashlee (edited 09-13-2002).]