My LONG into....just looking for support

This is my first time posting here so I will give a bit of history. I have been struggling with IF for 11 years now. (WOW! Where does the time go.) I have endo and PCOS. I have had 11 IUI's (some unmedicated,clomid, and some on Gonal F) and one IVF-all neg. I haven't done any treatment for the past two years and was honestly ready to give up. I could no longer afford (our ins doesn't cover anything) and it was becoming too much emotionally. The past year I have been wanting to try again but I don't know where to start and don't know if I have the energy to do it. Then...(of course I'll blame it on the doctor) at my last reg gyn appt he mentioned that he thought I may need another lap due to endo (pain and periods have become almost unmanagable). He says that they have a new tx for clearing tubes with lasor that has had good success. I am sooo confused. I would LOVE to give this another go but I dread the thought of starting down this emotional road again. I have thought about having him see if he can clear my tubes and just having lots of :jester: . Ok sorry to be so long and still not really have a point. Just thought that I would say hi and introduce myself. I go back to doc in November so I guess I have some thinking to do.
Thanks
Jessica