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Re: I lost my twins
Jun 26, 2007
Lost & confused,

Firstly i am sooo sorry for your loss & my heart & thoughts are with you & DH at this hard time!!!

I had a miscarriage at 17weeks in December 2006 (she had actually died between 12 & 13 though), & found out after autopsy on my baby that she was a little girl which i had a feeling she was.... & everyone else kept saying they thought it would be a boy..... so that made me cry even more when i was told that information over the phone, because even though my little girl, who i named Caitlyn May (because she was due 19th May 07) only spent a mere 17 weeks in my womb..... i felt completely bonded with her & that was evident when it was confirmed that she was a girl :angel:

After losing my darling daughter, the internet & these boards were my real strength! I would visit here every day to read people's kind words to me & that was such a comfort..... so really take advantage of this great opportunity because it helps...... it really does ;)

One thing i found when searching the internet for advise & reasons for the loss of my baby, was a touching poem that made me cry my eyes out so much that i could hardly read or breathe properly! It just touched my heart so much & i believed in every word that i read. I can't name the site i went to, however i will type the poem below for you & also for others who come across this post who can take something from this poem with them in their hearts! It truly gave me back my faith in god (because like you, & many others who have lost baby's..... i lost my faith in god for a short while & blamed him for taking my precious gift from me), so i hope this can give you back your faith & also bring you closer to your lost babies & possibly give you an understanding of where they are today & that they are not lost forever :angel:

A Poem to share........................

[U][B]What makes a mother [/B][/U]

[B]I THOUGHT OF YOU ALL I CLOSED MY EYES
AND PRAYED TO GOD TODAY.
I ASKED WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
AND I KNOW I HEARD HIM SAY.

A MOTHER HAS A BABY
THIS WE KNOW IS TRUE.
BUT GOD CAN YOU BE A MOTHER
WHEN YOUR BABY’S NOT WITH YOU?

YES YOU CAN HE REPLIED
WITH CONFIDENCE IN HIS VOICE,
I GIVE MANY WOMEN BABY’S
WHEN THEY LEAVE IS NOT THEIR CHOICE.

SOME I SEND FOR A LIFETIME
AND OTHER’S FOR A DAY.
AND SOME I SEND TO FEEL YOUR WOMB
BUT THERE’S NO NEED TO STAY.

I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND THIS GOD
I WANT MY BABY HERE!
HE TOOK A BREATH AND CLEARED HIS THROAT
AND THEN I SAW A TEAR.

I WISH I COULD SHOW YOU
WHAT YOUR CHILD IS DOING TODAY,
IF YOU COULD SEE YOUR CHILD SMILE
WITH OTHER CHILDREN AND SAY

WE GO TO EARTH TO LEARN OUR LESSONS
OF LOVE AND LIFE AND FEAR.
MY MOMMY LOVED ME OH SO MUCH
I GOT TO COME STRAIGHT HERE.

I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE A MOM
WHO HAD SO MUCH LOVE FOR ME
I LEARNED MY LESSON VERY QUICK
MY MOMMY SET ME FREE.

I MISS MY MOMMY OH SO MUCH
BUT I VISIT HER EACH DAY.
WHEN SHE GOES TO SLEEP
ON HER PILLOW’S WHERE I LAY.

I STROKE HER HAIR AND KISS HER CHEEK
AND WHISPER IN HER EAR.
MOMMY DON’T BE SAD
I’M YOUR BABY, I'M STILL HERE.”

SO YOU SEE MY DEAR SWEET ONE
YOUR CHILDREN ARE OK
YOUR BABIES ARE HERE IN MY HOME
AND THIS IS WHERE THEY’LL STAY

THEY’LL WAIT FOR YOU WITH ME
UNTIL YOUR LESSON IS THROUGH.
AND ON THE DAY THAT YOU COME HOME
THEY’LL BE AT THE GATES FOR YOU.

SO NOW YOU SEE WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
IT’S THE FEELING IN YOUR HEART.
IT’S THE LOVE YOU HAD SO MUCH OF
RIGHT FROM THE VERY START.

THOUGH SOME ON EARTH MAY NOT REALIZE YOU ARE A MOTHER,
UNTIL THEIR TIME IS DONE.
THEY’LL BE UP HERE WITH ME ONE DAY
AND KNOW YOU’RE THE BEST ONE! [/B]


Isn't it beautiful???

I wish you all the best in your grieving process & just know that it was nothing that you did & you are not being punished for anything..... just take all the time you need to grieve & lean on DH for support & encourage him to do the same...... & pull strength from one another to get through.

You are in my thoughts & prayers, Crystal xoxoxox :wave:





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