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I'm reading some of the responses here and you guys are right. There are about a million things that I should be thankful for. This board that I found yesterday being one of them. Hey Kalie, thank you for your message. You are two years older than I am staring down something really scary, yet you took the time to respond to my post. I am thankful that it is this procedure and not something worse. I just needed to get out some of the saddest sickest thoughts I had yesterday. If I said some of that to my family or my boyfriend they wouldn't get it. It hit me yesterday that I am depressed. Severly depressed. So here's my story if anyone cares to read it. I just want to say that I know there are women out there with situations that are far worse than mine and my heart goes out to you ladies, I don't know ya but I love ya. I hope that makes sense. I'm 25 years old. In August I had an abnormal pap smear. Over the phone, the nurse tells me that I have HPV. I almost hit the ground. What?? I said is that what the testing showed? She informed that anytime there is a high grade abnormality like mine it's just assumed that it's HPV. So she scheduled me for a colposcopy. I didn't know what to expect and to tell you the truth it wasn't that bad. There wasn't much pain, it was more me worrying than anything. A few days later I moved to Boston. Four days into my move here is when he died. Everything was such a blur for a while. I remember my doctor calling me and telling me he wanted to do cryosurgery on me. I don't know what I said but I know I just ignored it. I didn't have a period for 3 months and my hair was falling out, all kinds of weird things happening. Finally I knew I had to see a doctor. She took some blood, did a pap and a week later when I saw her, she told me that it looks like I may have polycystic ovarian syndrome. She gave me Provera to induce a period and put me on the pill. That all made me pretty sick too. She told me that it's going to be hard for me to concieve and if I ever want to, I would have to take meds. Anyway when the pap results came back in, again there was abnormalities. I was scheduled for a colposcopy. She said this was because of HPV which was never actually tested. I'm not disputing the fact that I have it, I probably do hence all the problems. I just find it odd that they wouldn't do the Hybrid Capture test to diagnose and to type it. Anyway, I go in for the colposcopy she's looking at my cervix with the vinegar solution on it and was like Oh my God, leaves the room to get another doctor. At that point, I tense up and am so freaked out. Now there are two doctor's and they decide to take 2 biopsies. It hurt so much worse than the first time and I started to shake and cry. It took so long and it was so terrible. I think it was mostly just me freaking out that made it as bad as it was. I got the results in 2 days. My diagnoses was severe displasia. My doctor wants to do the LEEP procedure on me. I talk to the nurse and we schedule the appointment for the Jan 19th. I went to see my doctor yesterday and she told me that she would rather put me under for this. Now that is where I have a real problem. The thought of being put under scares me. She explains that it's better for all of us. I'm just worried that I'm going to be messed up the rest of the day afterward or what if I don't wake up at all?? Anyway, that's what I'm doing now. I'm waiting for them to call me and let me know when they have time booked in the OR for this. Of course I'm sitting here reading everything I can about everything. That's how I found this board. I'm so glad that I did. Just from sitting here writing this out I feel alot better. So if you've made it this far in reading this then, thank you. I'm just concerned about this going under business. Has anyone had it done like that?? Well I'm going for now.

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