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I've thought for a while now that I'm starting to lose it. For the last 6 months I haven't been able to control my feelings. I'm in a constant rage. Thankfully, the only time I am in a good mood is when I'm with my 15 year old daughter who has become my only friend on the face of this earth. Yes, I've pushed EVERY one I've ever been friends with away, or let them fade out of my life... As I started to research what could be wrong with me, I've found that it's highly likely my boss (who I spend about 6 hours a day face to face with) has narcissist personality disorder (sp?). I can't stand him. I'm angry all day at work, I can be very mean, and my co-workers can't stand me because of my "negative attitude". I've been working with this guy for 10 years. I'm married to a man, for 15 years, who I didn't understand until this summer has a serious addiction to mind altering habits. But that really isn't why I fight with him at least once a week. It's because he lies. I can't deal with it. And since I quit drinking and smoking cigs in March I'm not his drinking buddy anymore. Now he needs his loser friends so much that they seem to be more important to him than his family? I used to hang out with these people too. Most of our fights stem from "the friends" and some of them start everytime I find evidence he's smoking behind my back and lying about it. I should tell you that I had a major surgery in April that has basically changed my life.

Now I just want to find a doctor who will prescribe me a drug that will numb my emotions. Maybe I'll be able to get through my days with the a-hole boss and the selfish husband if I just don't feel anything anymore.. :(
[QUOTE=corricatt]So I spent the weekend researching Borderline Personality Disorder, as well as the Narcissist too. I was sort of feeling relief, because I now know that there is help for me. The week was going along really well.. until Thursday, at lunch, when the A-hole pulled his s**t on me, the other girls saw it and tried to help me. The day went downhill from there. By the time I got home I was back to the molitov cocktail that I am, ready to explode. My family took my the brunt of my bad day, although it could have been worse, I really worked at holding back my pent up rage. :mad:[/QUOTE]

Hi, I hope things are getting better for you. I just wrote a post about my husband and how he is driving me crazy. LOL much like you ;) It's sad to see the other side of what may be causing this for my husband as well.

As for your husband smoking....he is an adult. Really no one wants to have to be told what to do. Let him figure it out on his own. Give him the information, but don't threaten him. It's just not worth it in the end. If my husband told me to stop, I'd say no. He doesn't own me.

I take prozac and it has helped me personaly with rages. It is even hard at times to cry. I hate work too and negative people around me. So work is no fun.

Try to find one thing to look forward to a day. Join a gym or some kind of group. I'd love to but I've got hubby problems where he won't let me out much only to foodshop and work. If you have the freedom to do them.

Good Luck!!

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