It appears you have not yet Signed Up with our community. To Sign Up for free, please click here....

Relationship Health Message Board

Relationship Health Board Index

[QUOTE=Alexandra789456] I told him that I "break up with friends constantly", use people, am selfish, don't give to others and that I focus only on myself. But, I work part-time and have full-time school. If I don't only focus on myself now.. and focus on other people constantly.. I can only see failure for myself. I used to be very giving and attentive to other people but I just can't afford that luxury right now. He is right.. but he doesn't understand that it's temporary. I told him straight out that I do want to get married and that I want the same things he does and that I stopped talking to "Joe" because I dont' have the time to be friends with too many people if I want to still see my family and close friends.. it's not that I'm selfish and see no more"use" in being with him. He just picks on the smallest stupidest things about me. But, it's true.. I'm NOT a sweet nice girl like the other girls out there.. I'm very aggressive.. I do Karate and I punch walls at times out of aggression.. I do constanly put people down because I see faults in others more easily than positive things.

Now I'm wondering if I'm just letting him fool me into thinking I'm a bad person and he's totally destroying my self confidence or if these traits are genunely bad about me? I can't afford to be nice to everyone.. I have a real busy life. I think it's funny to (of course behind their back) to make fun of stupid small things abotu people. No one's perfect. But, I know what he wants.. the perfect sweet innocent girl.. he always says that that is what he wants and that I'm not it. I cannot be her. I'm very masculine (although very beautiful) and I'm feminine in the way that I wear make-up and love romance songs. But, I'm also very aggressive, competitive, critical and vengeful. I'm not the quiet girl who sits with her legs crossed sipping wine in the corner. I speak loudly and laugh at everything and I dance like CRAZY and I am very outgoing and blunt. I'm not what he wants.. or am I just trying to convince myself that this is our problem? Does the perfect girl like that really exist? I cannot be like that to attract a man.. I just can't be all girly and submissive. I have too much to talk about.. too many things to say that are not "politically correct" and it does make me hard to be around.. but I'm not that bad that I'm rude to people in their face. Why WHy aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. This is the THIRD guy to break up with me bc of my personality. I bet you I am the problem.. why else would he break up with me so many times. I don't know if I need to mature and change.. or if I should just be happy with my "unique" personality.. but I don'ty want someone like me.. I want a nice shy quiet guy like my boyfriend. But, the type of man I want is attracted to me.. but then eventually sees the real me and gets turned off?? I have to change. I should send myself back for repairs lol. :jester: :confused:[/QUOTE]

Hi Alex,

This is a very interesting and revealing post. It shocked me how much you sound like me in many ways. I am not girly at all either, very aggressive and quick to dislike people. I never wanted to be that girl who needed everyone to like her and always had to be nice to everyone. I just don't like and respect that many people, and I've never been willing to waste my time caring what anyone thought. I think way too many people, especially girls, let their desire to please others interfere with being themselves and living their lives exactly like they want to. In my opinion, none of the traits you describe are "bad" or anything, although it's best to limit being mean to someone's face. But you don't owe anyone anything--it's YOUR life and therefore your right to live it on your terms, to make your own rules and determine your own priorities. I really admire your determination not to give up on things easily, and I think your chances of succeeding will increase if you always remember to be true to yourself.

I was surprised that you said three guys had dumped you because of your personality. I have trouble seeing that, because guys have always loved this about me. I usually don't get along with girls because we have little in common and few similar interest, but I've always had great guy friends and many guys pursuing me (I think because they like my aggressiveness and very strong opinions, though I'm sure that wouldn't be enough if I was unattractive). Anyway, I don't think it's your personality that's the problem, instead, it sounds like you (at least in the case above) tend to describe yourself unflatteringly, emphasizing the less desirable aspects of your personality, and don't give yourself enough credit for your good qualities when talking about yourself. I also think part of the problem is when you subvert your true personality by occasionally acting like a "sappy boring obsessive girl." It doesn't sound like the real you to say things like "I'll cancel the date and be pathetic for you"--remember, you want to present yourself in the most appealing possible way to get him interested again. What I'm getting at is I think you have the wrong idea of what he wants--don't try to act more nice and sweet than you really are, because he liked your true personality initially.

Every guy has different preferences, but if he's drawn to you, he probably doesn't want a girly, demure girl, and anyway, that would be pretending to be something you're not, which is never attractive. Instead, why not be the best possible you--focusing on the good rather than saying anything negative about yourself. I don't think that too many guys (no guy I'd want, anyway!) thinks "the perfect girl" is submissive and sappy sweet. Girls with strong personalities are much more interesting and fun--I totally disagree with the part in your post where you say your personality is the problem. Like Stormgirl said, you are who you are, and just because you've had past relationships fail doesn't mean it's because of your personality. Everyone has failed relationships--it's much more likely that you just haven't come across the right match for you yet. Don't think you have to change just because you've been dumped in the past--that's being ridiculously hard on yourself. Being fake is the biggest turn off ever--don't do it!! Just try to be the best possible version of your true self.

Also, you do not have to end up with a guy just like you...most relationships are better when each partner compliments--not mirrors--the other. No one wants someone just like them; it's better to find someone who balances you out, someone whose weaknesses are your strengths and vice versa. Don't despair...I love nice, quiet, shy, smart guys too, and they've been consistently drawn to my aggressive personality. In fact, I met the guy of my dreams one night when I was totally devestated because my football team lost in the playoffs (I'm an obsessed football fanatic). I got really wasted and out of control, arguing with everyone and being quite obnoxious. He still fell in love with me that night, and every day since we've fallen in love a little more :) . Don't change who you are, or some guy who's dream girl is just like you might not realize it!

All times are GMT -7. The time now is 05:10 AM.

© 2020 MH Sub I, LLC dba Internet Brands. All rights reserved.
Do not copy or redistribute in any form!