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[QUOTE=heath2273;3043277]Okay, I will give you the Readers Digest version. I am 34, have been married for 14 years, my wife is 12 years older than me. About seven years ago I found out that she had an affair with my best friend (M), I never let her know that I knew. I blamed it on myself, I was working about seventy hours a week back then (not much different now), and my friend had just gotten divorced, so I thought it was probably just a one time thing. I changed my work habbits and tried to be home more often, and limited comunication with M. About two years ago my wife had went with M's sister shopping, and had called me from M's house claiming that his sister had to stop by and then gotten a phone call and had to leave unexpectantly and would I come by and pick her up. When I got there the upstairs door was locked so I went around back that door was locked as well, so i peered through the window and saw them kissing, I can not explain the feeling of rage that I had at that moment, but I kept my cool, knocked on the door, my wife opened it, and we left. The next day I started pulling our financials together, so I could remove some money and freeze the rest of the bank account and file for divorce. Thats when I found that the account that I thought was at about $40,000.00
had $250.00 in it, I frantically looked in other accounts that we shared and they had all been closed, I flew off the handle asking her where our money was she told me that it was gone. I left , and didn't return home for two days, i decided I needed to see how much more financial problems we had, when I did more digging I found that not only was our money gone, but that she had maxxed out both of my credit cards, plus had almost $20,000.00 in credits cards herself. When i consulted a lawer friend of mine he told me that I needed to try and stick it out long enough to try and clear up some of the bills. Thats what i did, almost two years later I am to the point that financially i can do what I wanted to 2 years ago, but I can't.......I dont know why, my heart tells me i do not love her anymore, my head tells me to get the heck out of there, and my asks gut what are you doing here? But I still cannot make the move, I feel like such a wimp! I still havent told her that i know about her and M, not that it makes much difference now. And now i also feel guilty because I feel like I used her for two years just to clear up money issues. This is not me..... I make hard business disicions everyday, for crying out loud I own my own business. But I just can't make this happen. I need advise! i know this all sounds like a soap opera, but its not; its my life and I cant seem to change the channel.[/QUOTE]

Honestly you are in the same place I am, but yours is worse than mine. I recetnly left my ex ( I hate that right now, saying ex) because we didn't get along. God forbid me to have caught him cheating on me cause there would be no secret about him knowing I caught him. If he did what your wife did to you about finance's OMG! I would not do that to a man and would not expect it in return. Now have I gotten a charge card for 2,000 and kept it a secret? YES! Do I work every day? YES more than him by far! I was getting in debt while he was not working and I did not want to add pressure on him that I already did by whinning we was getting behind and this charge card comes in teh mail and I was like wow, I can pay this and that and I can buy this and that for the "kids". Did he understand when he found out, HELL NO!

My point is right now that I wanted the break up (I didn't want it, but I was tired of not being happy) and now I want to be together but I don't. I am so messed up. I think it is all about the ties we don't want to break. We want that comfort zone to make sure we have "someone". I say this on both parties, cause he treats me like a queen sometimes now as to when we are together he is always selfish about my feelings.

I guess you have to figure out what can you live with? I have always tried to say if I can deal with him being with someone else it is over for sure. Now I eat my words. I can't stand to think of him being with someone else but I know we don't belong together. I think it is all in my head because he did me wrong and he will not admitt it. If he admitted he could have treated me much better or even tried to treat me like a queen (so to speak, I don't want an *** kisser trust me) we would have worked together.
Now I cry and he runs and play's of course he says I forced him to run and play, well no he forced me to make a decission I did not want to make. I now have to move on and realize he is not what will make me happy, he only makes me misserable for one reason or another (save the stories for another time as I am sure I will express them later).

What you need to do is what you feel is right! If you feel you are not happy then leave! Be prepared to cry/weep a while, maybe months. THe way I feel about it is, I am getting to know me and I don't want someone in my life right now. I want to understand my feelings (which I have never been able to do). If I jump into dating now, my relationship will be doomed.

Good luck, I hope I didnt' ramble to much, but tonight was a bad night for me with the ex anyhow as I ended up crying over what he said (I wanted it etc). No I DID NOT WANT IT, I WANTED TO be HAPPILY MARRIED AFTER (he couldn't even get married , even though he asked, I would not)





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