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Hello!

I need some objective feedback and input as to my strange situation regarding my recent breakup with my boyfriend. It's a complicated, ugly situation so I will try to be as succinct as possible. I also know it's hard for you all to give some feedback as you don't know me, my ex, or the details, but I just to hear some more opinions.

My ex and I had been together for a year and a half before he moved to NY this past August for a medical residency, which was only supposed to be 14 months long. I was hesitant to embark on this long-distance relationship but my ex coaxed me into going along with it and feeling confident in our relationship and the future we had, I agreed to do it. Despite our relatively smooth relationship, we had a couple of bumps along the way. A couple of times I found topless pics of his exes on his computer and he made some lame excuse saying that they sent them to him without asking. Then things got bad and I almost broke up with him a year ago when I discovered text messages from an ex that was sexually flirtatious and he reciprocated-- basically they attempted to arrange and meet for sex and though they never did, I found the messages and flipped out on him. After his sobbing, begging, groveling, etc, my ex convinced me stay with him b/c it was one mistake (albeit a huge one) and according to him, it was impulsive drunk-talk that was never going to take place. I forgave him, took him back, and we worked on it and we didn't run into any trust issues after that. But overall in the year and a half before he left for NY, he never truly did anything else to my knowledge that crossed the line-- he always seemed sincere, loving, caring, affectionate, etc...all those great qualities you'd want in a partner.

The only other thing that was strange about our relationship was the sex. Towards the beginning of the relationship, everything seemed great chemistry-wise -- but not long after we became a couple, he seemed to less interested in initiating sex. He wouldn't even seem interested in making out as often as a young couple in their late 20s would! Frustrated, I would ask him repeatedly what was going on and that he made me feel undesired. He would always respond with a valid excuse-- he was in an intensive medical program, long hours in the hospital, his mom's ailing health was weighing on his mind, etc. Basically, he DID have a lot of crap going on in his life so I could see it would be conceivable that stress affected his libido. Looking back now, though, I see it as bizarre that he acted this way sexually with me since we only saw each other on weekends. After a long stressful week in grad school, I was always ready to jump his bones on friday nights, but some of the time he seemed quite reserved and we'd end up watching a movie and he'd fall asleep leaving me feeling frustrated and rejected. We're both attractive people so I felt it odd that a young man in his late 20s wouldn't be all over his girlfriend after not having seen her for 5 days.

So he leaves for NY and we do the long-distance thing and everything seems fine. The only thing we'd argue a lot about was our uncertain future-- it was possible that we couldn't live in the same city after his residency and I made it clear to him that I couldn't take more years of long-distance and that that would be the only reason to possibly break up. Despite our rough patches on the phone we'd always make up and agree we wanted to make things work with us.

Last month, he comes out to CA and we spend a great 3 weeks together since he had a month's vacation then. Two days after we say goodbye, I get a message from a girl asking me if i'm still seeing my boyfriend and she was confused because he'd insisted to her that he was single. Naturally the email crushed me and all those emotions you feel when you've been betrayed. I gave her my # so we talked, civily and calmy, about how we'd both been led along by this guy. She stated they got together SOON after he left me in CA and how he repeatedly stated that he was single or "on a break", though we NEVER decided that! She did admit that they were never official and he mentioned he still had feelings for me (hah! since we were still together) but he would say affectionate things to her and they had a semi-relationship, essentially. All the while, he was talking to me and keeping me as his long-distance girlfriend.

Ugh. The whole situation was disgusting and atrocious and of course when confronted, he denied everything and said this girl was a colleague who was psycho and who wanted to be with him. Then he finally admitted to their "friendship" and that he crossed the line (never has admitted to how long their relationship lasted, he adamantly denies that they got together so soon). I know he's full of sh*t and I dumped him of course, but I was so side-swepped by the whole thing. After almost 2 years together, he never exhibited anything in his character that would show that he could be so evil and malicious, which is FRIGHTENING! He always was so caring, affectionate, polite, well-mannered, etc. The other girl said he was like that with her too.

The reason I'm asking you all for your feedback is concerning this: obviously this guy is bad news and not worth any type of consideration, but since I consider myself a perceptive person, I can't believe I didn't see this coming. It scares me to think someone can appear one way and be so different inside. My brain is trying to rationalize and make sense of what happened. He hid and lied SO well, I'm worried that he may be a pathological liar.

BUT what is SO WEIRD about this is the following: when I talked to the girl, I told her sorry that he was just using her as a consistent booty call in NY while he was out there. But then she informed me of a SIMILAR libido problem he had with her!!! He would also rarely initiate sex with her and though he could definitely have sex, their relationsihp was NOT about the sex, which is what most affairs are about, esp if you're a young guy in your late 20s!

This part she revealed to me really surprised me. I thought maybe he was just a pathological liar who sought the thrill of a double life and was using this other girl for sex. I thought maybe he was a huge asshole and hid it so well for so long! But there's something more deeply wrong with this guy! I'm even now considering whether he has sexuality issues he's grappling with (bisexual or homosexual) and is in constant need of being around women to reaffirm his heterosexuality as to keep him distracted from perhaps what he truly wants (since he got together with her SO quickly). Another part that can go with that theory is last month I was using his computer and I saw in his search history "gay black men", like a search for support groups almost! For a split second I considered it but there were never any other signs to indicate he was questioning his sexuality-- but since this has all happened, anything's possible! Either way he has severe emotional and psychological issues BUT the scariest part of all this is that he seems like such a well-adjusted, stable, sweet, caring, genuine kind of man.

I'm sorry this post is SO long. there's so many parts to this story I had to get out. I swear I feel like I'm in some horrible TV movie! The guy is out of my life and I know he did an atrocious thing, but I suppose for myself, I need to be able to make sense of a nonsensical situation. But perhaps there is no way to explain what he did. he himself seems to believe his own lies, even though he's admitting more and more to me the more time passes. he has seemed apologetic and remorseful and seems devastated and claims he "crossed the line" with his colleague because he lost hope when I said I didn't want to do more long distance if we couldn't be in the same city. Perhaps he had an irrational fear of being alone?? We had many discussions of going on a break while he was in NY but he never wanted to! So as a logical woman, none of this makes any sense. I can "understand" how cheating happens with a random hookup but that's usually about sex!

I know it's hard to psychoanalyze someone you don't know, but in all the stories of cheating I've ever heard, this is the most bizarre! All my friends and family NEVER saw this coming-- everyone's jaw dropped when they found out. Sure, cheating with some hot woman in a bar is a possible occurance in a LDR, but carrying on a months-long relationship with a colleague and not have it be about sex?? SO ODD!

Any feedback? I'm so thankful I found out now rather than later but can I just chalk this up to severe emotional/psychological issues that NEVER came forth till recently? Sorry for this MUCH TOO LONG post! Thank you! :)





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